Am I The Man?
Before I start I want to make this clear that this is not being posted for me to get attention or for anyone to comment telling me how super I am because that is not going to help me (unless it is a genuine compliment than I'm okay with that).
This past weekend I met somebody and I am going to say with the most sincerity here that she was completely unreal. I would like to describe how absolutely gorgeous she was but I feel that I would only be trivaling her looks. It's not just about the looks though, she had a ton of substance. I chatted most of the evening away with her and if our gathering did not break up I could have talked even more.
Here is the dilemma... self-confidence. To put it bluntly I am a pretty short guy (5 ft even) and even though I have always done okay with getting girls my height has always played tricks with my head. I feel that certain types of ladies would never go for a guy like me so in certain circumstances I would just assume that I would never get a shot anyway and I would just sorta give up. Sure I think I have a pretty good sense of humor and most people that know me (or even gamed with me over XboX Live) would agree that I am a pretty fun person to talk to but sometimes I feel that its not enough. I am by no means bad looking but I also feel that I would not say that I am so great looking either, I feel like I'm just average and maybe its the height... I don't really know for sure but I sorta feel like I'm just there and thats not simply good enough for certain women.
Now back to the evening... it went pretty well (I think so anyway) and I still sorta clammed up. I felt like maybe she was just being nice to me or she just has that charm and makes every guy feel like they have a chance. Basically I did nothing cause I felt like I was not good enough for her. Now it was not a total loss though, I met her at my buddy's house... you see he and his brother have been trying to introduce me to her for about a year now and since I rekindled my friendship with them they wanted to hang out with her in the worst way. Now even though I was doubting myself I know that we will definately cross paths again, you see she is related to the brothers and since we had a great time we are gonna set something up again.
Now all I have to is between now and then learn some confidence... I have little time to convince myself that I do deserve to end up with someone like her. The trick is not to think of a game plan I really liked her and I would rather be myself instead of some smoothe talking asshole that I really am not. My other boy, ram2600 always tells me that I am a better person that I think and that all I need to do is be myself, had he been there he would have proud that I maintained my identity.
Heres to hoping that the real me is good enough to deserve what he always thought he was never entitled to.
TO BE CONTINUED.........
This past weekend I met somebody and I am going to say with the most sincerity here that she was completely unreal. I would like to describe how absolutely gorgeous she was but I feel that I would only be trivaling her looks. It's not just about the looks though, she had a ton of substance. I chatted most of the evening away with her and if our gathering did not break up I could have talked even more.
Here is the dilemma... self-confidence. To put it bluntly I am a pretty short guy (5 ft even) and even though I have always done okay with getting girls my height has always played tricks with my head. I feel that certain types of ladies would never go for a guy like me so in certain circumstances I would just assume that I would never get a shot anyway and I would just sorta give up. Sure I think I have a pretty good sense of humor and most people that know me (or even gamed with me over XboX Live) would agree that I am a pretty fun person to talk to but sometimes I feel that its not enough. I am by no means bad looking but I also feel that I would not say that I am so great looking either, I feel like I'm just average and maybe its the height... I don't really know for sure but I sorta feel like I'm just there and thats not simply good enough for certain women.
Now back to the evening... it went pretty well (I think so anyway) and I still sorta clammed up. I felt like maybe she was just being nice to me or she just has that charm and makes every guy feel like they have a chance. Basically I did nothing cause I felt like I was not good enough for her. Now it was not a total loss though, I met her at my buddy's house... you see he and his brother have been trying to introduce me to her for about a year now and since I rekindled my friendship with them they wanted to hang out with her in the worst way. Now even though I was doubting myself I know that we will definately cross paths again, you see she is related to the brothers and since we had a great time we are gonna set something up again.
Now all I have to is between now and then learn some confidence... I have little time to convince myself that I do deserve to end up with someone like her. The trick is not to think of a game plan I really liked her and I would rather be myself instead of some smoothe talking asshole that I really am not. My other boy, ram2600 always tells me that I am a better person that I think and that all I need to do is be myself, had he been there he would have proud that I maintained my identity.
Heres to hoping that the real me is good enough to deserve what he always thought he was never entitled to.
TO BE CONTINUED.........
posted by Antek on 4/10/2006
3 Comments:
Crash, you fucking kick ass, you just don't know it yet. Stop thinking about whether or not you deserve to be with her, and try and figure out if she deserves to be with you. Confidence is 100% mental. I mean, look at me. I'm nothing to look at, I've got about 10 pounds too many and when it comes to gaming, I pretty much suck, but I know that I rock. I mean, I know it, to the core of my being. You need to know it too. Once you do, all the tall guys in the world won't be able to touch you.
Tony,
Give it a chance. I believe there is someone out there for everyone, and it will happen for you. Just let it fall into place man!
Well, I can say I don't miss that part of being single. It's rough out there and I know that women can be really mean. But you've got some good friends with good advice. Be yourself. Exude confidence and you'll get the girl. Good luck
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